Christmas has gone, it hasn't been the same for me this year now that you have gone. I still cant stop thinking about the night before you left loxley ward and how you clung onto me like a baby, I knew now you were trying to tell me you didn't want to leave loxley to go to the care home. You seemed to go downhill so quickly too once you were in the home, if only we could have looked after you, I think you may have fought to stay in this world, but that we will never know. I have the lovely memory of your last night in the home, where you sat up on your own and reached out to give me a hug, I will cherish that memory forever. And I'm so glad I got to spend an hour and a half with you on that last friday night before you closed your eyes. We shared a beautiful friendship in the 2 and a half years I knew you, I was so lucky to have you as my close friend. R.i.p my beautiful Nypaporn not a day has gone by that I havent thought of you xx till we meet again my friend xx